I miss you

I miss you most in the middle of the night 

When the distractions of the day sleep

And the absence of your presence tugs my heart

In the place where your love once held it

And the reality of your disaffection rehearses in my mind

Where the knowledge of your love once calmed it

And the split of us hurts my soul

When the passion of our love once healed it

And the missing you won't be whisked away a by song

or washed away by good wine 

or soothed by fond memories. 

I miss you in sobs until sleep can no longer escape me

And I awake to a new day of distractions.  

CGL 12/29/14

Episode Rapture

Episode Rapture ©

no wound visible to the naked eye

consumed by aching emptiness

hope ran away

was it really my fault?

because I trusted?

was he right?

NO.

he raped my soul of her love

on the inside I was just trying not to die

then purpose set me on a new path

healing steps to recovering me

dreaming bigger singing louder

and hope came back home

and love restored my soul

now my life lights the world

written by cgl November 16, 2010

In Love

in love with your heart
at first by mere chance when we
danced long in the park
in love with your Mind
thinking we could make music
just taking our time
now deeply in love
ready to find out what else
you and me could be

written by cgl 5/12/11

Constant

With all that can change in the moments of the days
There is this one thing that will never sway
An adoration so sincere
It makes me grin from ear to ear
Your mouth like honey oh so sweet
Warms my body down to my feet
My passion for you now an unquenchable fire
'Cause Baby you are all my heart desires

written by cgl march 28 2011

Pain

I once had an acquantaince
I hated him and tried to send him away
in time he became a comfort, a blanket
pain, that was his name, had become a very dear friend

But he had begun to pack up his things...he was leaving my life
when asked why, he simply replied
"my work here this time is almost complete you see
for the I have now imparted in you the three things I brought with me:

"wisdom...
i set up in your heart so you'd know your love had been stolen
i set up in your heart intensely so you'd know you had loved very deeply"
and then I realized I had learned to nurture the love I possessed within


he continued...

"protection....
i made your heart sensitive and taught you what went wrong
i made you emotional and hesitant so you would avoid harmful situations"
and then I realized that even as my heart was tender I was so careful not to let anyone touch it while it healed


he went on...

"motivation...
i caused you to recognize and quickly withdraw from potentially damaging situations
i caused you to reflect and passions were ignited"
and then I realized I was motivated to pursue purpose and passions long forgotten

So you see in the end
I loved what I first hated
my friend pain had reminded me of the best I knew
to guard my heart with all diligence for out of it flows the issues of life


written by cgl

Love All Day

I love you best
in the morning when
our hearts are fresh
the day has just begun
and again full of possibilities of being with you in brand new ways

I love you beautiful
in the afternoon since
our hearts matured
and we made it though the hump of the day
yet there's still potential for passion and play

I love you most
at nighttime after
our hearts are full and wise and the long day has waned
and our time, easy or not, was sweet and hot,
and I know you more and again for another day

written by cgl march 14, 2011

Dreaming

dreaming of
accomplished visions
unearthed passions
accepted love

telling stories of
rewarded faith
realized hopes
satisfied resolutions

living with
broken promises
realized nightmares
disappearing convictions

making it
unbroken promises
fulfilled purpose
renewed days

written by cgl on november 17, 2010